i'm nineteen! my eighteenth year zoomed past really fast, maybe it was due to the long holiday which i failed to treasure properly. this is the first time i had to spend my birthday studying and it really sucks. a couple more years of this same scenario. yikes. not to forget, thanks for all the wishes and stuff!

school's (almost) out!

today's my last day of school and i wish i were totally done with school for now. lectures and tutorials are officially over for the first semester, but the dreadful exams are creeping by real close. freaky. with less than two weeks to the exams, i wonder why i'm not exactly stressed despite the fact that i have yet to start on revision. i believe i started earlier than this for the a levels, why not now?!

seriously, what's wrong with me. need to mug crazily intensive for the remaining days, if not, i would be majorly screwed big time. how awesome it would be if all the stuffs i've got to memorize were song lyrics to catchy tunes. that would make studying a whole lot easier, i suppose. studying = student + dying. how apt. never realized that till i chanced upon that on photobucket.

oh wait, i know what's wrong with me-i'm demoralized, unmotivated and i need a double chocolate frappe, preferably one per day till i get sick of it. can't wait for liberation on the 28th and i ought to count myself lucky for ending relatively early. as for now, motivation and determination, pretty pretty please come to me, quickly.

Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life.

----500 days of summer.----

today, as with yesterday, passed that way. of course, i had stuffs to do-econs tutorial and tons of revision material to cover for finals, but i decided that those could wait. since i was finally freed from graded assignments for this semester, i thought i deserved a "celebratory break", hah me and the excuses i come up with in name of procrastination.

within these two days, the most productive thing i did was perhaps booking air tickets and hotel accommodation to the land of smiles! awesome possum to the very maximum. i foresee a very happening december and i am stoked! away to bangkok from 01-05 december, and then jetting off again to hongkong from 10-16 december! the thought of it alone gets me all hyped up, argh such an unbearable wait. alas, the beauty of such comes along with its fair share of thorns. itinerary of both are not done, at all i would say. need to get both done asap! would definitely love an intensive shopping trip in bangkok, but it's kinda impossible with an angsty teenage brother and my dad, a grown man-both of whom, unfortunately, do not appreciate the fine art of retail therapy. oh well, shall do my best to plan a well balanced itinerary packed with good food, sight seeing and shopping.

for now, it's time to burst my happy bubble. before i can embrace the arrival of december, i must first conquer november which used to be my favourite month, not anymore. can't believe that november's already here. is it me or is time passing by extremely fast this year? bummer. not forgetting that monday blues are kicking in and there's soci tutorial tomorrow. oh, the joy.

"You can't move on when you've got your eyes stuck on the rear view mirror"
-----Love Happens----

caught the movie today, on my self-declared no school day. honestly, it wasn't as bad as the various reviews made it out to be. indeed, the sudden change in attitudes from both burke and eloise was kinda random and illogical, but otherwise it was okay i guess. one of the scenes was really moving, burke's father-in-law and rocky the parrot shared a really cute relationship, and there were a couple of quotes that intrigued me. i love meaningful movie quotes, always have, and i usually make it a point to check out these quotes cuz my ability to store them in my head rarely lasts longer than the movie. as for the best part of this movie? it taught me three new words-quidnunc, poppysmic and sesquipedalianist. interesting, though i am having trouble adding the last word to my pretty broke vocabulary bank.

that aside, dinner at seah im food centre was seriously awkward with everyone staring when they walked past the table. everyone else had one plate of food each, and one couple even shared one plate of fried kway teow when the serving was so darn small, so xiuwen and i were pretty much standing out against the rest, with one plate of fried kway teow each and another plate of carrot cake to share. the portion was seriously s.m.a.l.l. but people were staring as though we were gluttons who have been starved for days. at the end of the meal, i was only satisfied, not even full. perhaps it's an anomaly to have relatively larger appetites these days, sucks to be me then. :( never knew that marginality could be found even in such situations, no wonder everyone is at least doubly marginalized.

anyway, my passion for reading novels has been reignited all of a sudden. it must be all the novel-based movies. if only this could be applied for textbooks, how great it would be. without drifting off or dozing off within minutes, i would definitely be way more productive. unfortunately, now's the time for me to read notes/textbooks and not novels. argghhh, gotta wait till after the finals. such a long, yet short wait.

i lost my atm card! but i got a replacement with changed pin already. the last time i saw it was last friday when i deposited money, and if i'm not wrong, i probably forgot to remove my card from the machine. how rare of me to deposit money! it's always withdrawals, withdrawals and more withdrawals. anyway, i find it rather amusing that i didn't realize that the card was gone till yesterday night. in fact, i was more amused by my foolishness than worried for my loss. must be really maaaaad. i did notice that there was one card less in my wallet, but i couldn't figure out what it was so i just left my thoughts hanging there. gahhh how careless can i be?! oh well, i just hope i don't lose important things again or at the very least, realize that i lost something within the same day and not like 5 days later.

and when i got home yesterday, a fluorescent yellow envelope on my desk greeted me. i could guess who it was from instantly! yellow reminds me of her somehow. upon seeing the handwriting, my guess was proven right. it was indeed a pleasant surprise. got home only near 10pm, drained from school, but the mail chased the blues all away! peiwen, if you're reading this, thank you so much for your innovative way of cheering people up! fortunately, you didn't come personally to place it in my mailbox, cuz it's perpetually locked. and singpost is unusually slow eh? i don't think i will use the smiley stickers you gave though, gonna leave it intact and buy more smiley stickers to paste everywhere! i really think smiley stickers do have a therapeutic effect. see you next week and we have yet to decide on our buffet location (my totally not subtle hint for you to research)!

totally grateful that i have awesome friends who hear me rant, tolerate my nonsense, be there for me and lots more. it's because of them that i am still sane. (: